car situation is being dealt with. less stressed. my insurance company is being awesome if the charges become out of my budget. but first look today suggests minimal damage. I’m hoping the mechanic tomorrow comes back with the same news.
my shoulder is still sore though. I don’t know what part of the accident caused it, but I’m hoping it’s just a little stiff and nothing is actually wrong with it.
still freaking out. woke up crying and super nauseated. feeling sick about the whole thing. now I get to wait for a body shop to open and hope that it’s not going to cost too much money to fix… I was finally getting to an okay position where I was starting to save money. So much for that. and I get to bail on all my plans today.
Kevin, of course. I finally got a hold of him, but he’s being an immature asswipe, as usual. He owes me $100+, but won’t give me any of it. So I guess I just have to say fuck it and deal with him just signing these checks from our old place and deal with not getting paid back.
I’m never dating again. My ex is a useless and absolutely awful human being and I never want to go through something like this again. It’s too draining.
But I did get to volunteer with cats today. And I met the sweetest little kitty. Her name is Angel and she’s normally not super friendly with people. But she and I bonded instantly. She kept rubbing against me and climbing on me while I was cleaning, and she even climbed onto my shoulder and perched while I walked around the shelter. It took everything in me not to fill out an adoption application. I really want to bring her home and see if she and Lilly will get along. And if they do… I’m totally going to be a cat lady. And it’ll be awesome.
Who told you
That the best part about you
Is your negative space?
Who told you
That your laugh lines
Are a burden?
Who told you
To say “I’m fine”
When someone asks you
How you’re really doing?
Who told you
That wet eyes
And tear filled cheeks
Are something to be
Pick yourself up.
Dust yourself off.
As long as I am breathing
I will not let you
Throw your soul
Into a waste compactor.
You are allowed to
Take up space and
Show emotion and
Finish your plate and
Forget your weight and
Smile your brightest and
Cry your hardest but
Do not give up.
”—THIS ISN’T YOUR HOME BUT YOU STILL BELONG HERE (2014)by Keaton Webb (via theboyiswild)
instead of watching the 50 Shades trailer, why not just make awkward eye contact with a total stranger at the grocery store for a solid 2 minutes and 34 seconds? you get the same skin-crawling, uncomfortable feeling but without the shitty writing, terrible acting and massive dose of rape culture
So the OkCupid guy was actually reasonable when he got turned down? He just told me he was bummed because he had a really great time last time and if I ever change my mind to let him know. Like??? I’m really taken aback. In a good way. I still don’t want to go out with him. But he’s at least a decent person about it (low standards, I know).
Celebrating by not going on a date and getting my oil changed. And I’m honestly really excited about it. Throw in some LOTR reading, and concert at Red Rocks tomorrow night, and you’ve got one happy Kathryn.
“Ask him why he can’t commit.
Ask him how he can say he loves you but not check on you everyday.
Why he can call you in the middle of the night but not first thing in the morning.
Why he can’t say your name without splintering his tongue.
Ask him where he goes after he leaves you.
Who he’s with when he says he’s at home.
Tell him you don’t trust him.
Tell him that he makes you crazy,
that his half assd attempts at security drive you mad.
Tell him that you don’t like the way that loving him makes you feel, that you wake up every morning aching.
Tell him, you hurt more, you sleep less and it always feels like you are too weighty for him.
Ask him why he can’t commit,
why he leaves and returns just when you think you can live without him.
Ask him why he can’t stay,
Why he’s committed to leaving but not committed to you.
Ask him why you never feel like you can ask him these things?
Why he gets to live weightless,
while you live shoulder deep inside him.”—Key Ballah, Ask Him (via keywrites)